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Tuesday, 27 October 2009

# 534 - Thoughts about love

This is a transcript of what I wrote in my notebook last night.

I can't sleep, so I was reading Princess Diaries 2. It had me shaking with confined laughter. It's catching and entertaining. I didn't want to put it down. "Lea, you have to sleep," I told myself and got up to turn off the light in the kitchen. Thinking about the book, I had just put down, I was thinking to myself: "I want to write." It had inspired me. So here I am, scribbling in the nearest notebook available. I'm tired. It's like Tuesday 1.am. I should sleep!

Mia's feelings about Michael reminds me of what it was like to be in love with someone, who you thought was somehow above you. To be in love with someone you were not going out with. It's a curious well known feeling, that I haven't been it touch with since over a year. It's so very different from being in love with your boyfriend, which is a close-up love, the other being a somewhat distant, unreciprocated love. But a love all the same.

The not-going-out love will eventually drive you nuts at the same time as it makes you happy, which I suppose is what being in love does. Not sure what kind of happy I mean, though.

My friend, who was then going out with the guy she is now married to, told me I would find a boyfriend the day I stopped looking for one. I knew she was right.

And I prayed (when I prayed), "God, I think I understand, that you want me to be ready for this. That I have to learn to get along on my own first. That I should trust, it will come in due time. That I also have to learn to love myself. That I need to think through, what it is, that I would leave behind. But I think I got the lesson now. I am ready. Please send me my boyfriend."

And here I am, with my boyfriend, and we love each other. Did I really learn the lesson? I hope so. At the time, I know I thought, that I had been alone for long enough. It might seem, that I had.

I beseech you, daughters of Jerusalem, do not wake up love, before it wants to on its own! Learn what lessons you best can. God will send you the love you need, when you are ready for it.

I hope that made sense to someone.

Thursday, 17 September 2009

# 533

We went through with our presentation even though half of our group were missing due to sickness or children's sickness. It went okay. Not very well, but okay. The good thing is, that we will not have to make presentations of the next two assignments. That was my main object with going through with the presentation today.

Now I have four lessons of KLM (Christianity, Life-orientation and Citizenship) before the weekend begins. Well, that means, I have some reading to do tomorrow, but I'll get it done soon enough. And no lessons. I can stay at home to read :D And then tomorrow evening Kristian and I are going out, because we are celebrating our one year anniversary as a couple <3. I am looking very much forward to that. It's been a long time since we last went out to do something, like dinner or the movies. Kristian has taken the initiative on this one, so I don't have to do any planning, I am just waiting to see, what he comes up with. It's nothing big I think, but will be all the more pleasant for that.

I got a letter from the TV lincence office yesterday. I have to pay the licence, and just now, when I have such a huge minus in my account. Grumbles. Luckily there was a monthly payment option.

I am thinking about NaNoWriMo these days. I have such a lot going on, and I even have to go into practical training for a week in mid-November. But I still want to participate, even though I may not win this year. I have such a good plan for the 2009 novel...

Tuesday, 15 September 2009

# 532

Education is still okay. That means, I like the subject. But the way our schedule has been organized (and re-organized), has been very chaotic. Yesterday I spent eight hours at the place, without really learning anything. That was, well, not a very motivating experience. We have been divided into study groups, and on thursday, each group has to make a 10 minute presentation on the same subject! Same questions and all. The seventh group to present the same thing, must feel really stupid. I don't want to do this!!

Well, on other news, I got a new gamer PC. I built it myself - applauses to me. It's working quite well except for one thing: It keeps rebooting without being asked. It's really annoying when I'm in the middle of something, and the screen just goes black. And I am not sure what to do about it. That's the downside of building your own PC. You can't just take it down to the store, where you bought it and say "fix it."

I am playing Sacred 2. I like it. Graphics are pretty good. There is a little too many game-creator-jokes in the game, I think. You sort of have to be in the mood for it, it's not so "realistic", if you know what I mean. Eesh, I am having trouble expressing myself today! My first character is a dryad, who I named Deeanna. She is level 13 now. Yesterday I found a really nice bow. There is a new type of weapons too, throwing stars - nice! The game design is really beautiful. In the big city, which I can't remember the name of right now, I saw a house, which I would have loved to live in. It pained me, that it wasn't real...

On Sunday Kristian and I went to my uncle's 70th birthday party. He held it in a small local airport, because he owns parts in two little planes. During the party, guests were invited to a flight in the little 4-person planes. It's a lot of fun to fly in this type of plane. It was the second time I tried it in my life. Kristian tried it for the first time, and he was really excited about it. I understand that :)

Thursday, 03 September 2009

# 531 - UCL

The first few days here at the teachers' college has been okay. There has been an awful lot of social event, which I haven't really been geared for, and therefore have avoided as much as possible. It is not that the other people are not nice, it is just that I feel like I am doing this for the 100th time, you know, starting at a new place. And I just sort of want to get on with the serious stuff.

At the moment I am at school, but our teacher has not shown up. This is the second time that has happened within the first two days. Now a message is coming in, our teacher is away and we have the rest of the day off. So, see you later :)

Monday, 17 August 2009

# 530 - A few snapshots of everyday life

This is Findus, the cat that often comes to visit me. I am not allowed to keep a cat in my otherwise perfect apartment, so I invite Findus in for a some goodies and a nap in my wicker chair whenever he comes around. At first I thought he might be a stray, and was on the verge of keeping him, but then did a little investigation and found out, that his owners live just two streets from here. And they are okay with me taking him in from time to time. He really is a cute little guy, who loves to be petted.

And here am I, cooking in my small, but non-shared kitchen :D

And here is Kristian, studying for his Chemistry B-level to gain access to university. He is borrowing my computer.

Thursday, 30 July 2009

# 529 - Accepted

Today I got a letter. I was accepted to the teacher education at UCL (University College Lillebælt)! This is great news to me. I can't wait to begin studying, and I can't believe there is still one month until I will. Already now I had to fill in what I chose to be my first line-subject. I chose Danish for the little children.

There is still three more weeks of work to endure. This week has been kinda tough. Today the weather was bad, too. And I had to ride around some parts of town, that I don't know so well, and the roads are just so hard to figure out. But luckily no very dirty houses and no very unpleasant citizens, so I guess I should not complain so much.

Only nine days till my cousin's wedding. I should order the gift soon! Hmm, why am I feeling so stressed out? I only work about six hours a day, and don't really do much besides that, except hang out with Kristian, which is wonderful.

Well, gotta go.

Thursday, 23 July 2009

# 528

The before mentioned editor wrote back to me. He said he passed the manuscript on to one of the other editors, who are in charge of children's books. That's okay by me. I know this editor too, and she is really nice. So now I just have to wait, I guess. He also mentioned, that he had read an article that I wrote for the Bible School's student magazine. He thought it was a nice text. That's nice to know. It was just a small piece where I shared some of my thoughts about being a student at the school.

I am in the middle of the process of handwriting the manuscript in a notebook for my niece. Going over the text so slowly, I come up with more and more improvements. So it's very rewarding. Can't wait to give the book to her. She just turned seven a few days ago. I hope she likes it.

I was soaked through my skin when I arrived at work this morning. It was just raining and raining all morning. Now my shoes are on the radiator. Tomorrow should be a little better. It will be nice to finish work tomorrow and just have a relaxing weekend. A week like this is a little hard. But I actually like this work. It's to do with people, it makes sense, and I can see my results - three things that I like about a job. And cleaning is very satisfactory, when you have the time and tools to do it properly.

Speaking of which, my father says he will get me a new vacuum cleaner. The one I have is missing a wheel, which means it scratches my floor, though it sucks okay. My father has lately changed his job, and is now working at a vacuum cleaner factory. The new one he will get me, will have "the newest noise-quenching technology". Plus the required amount of wheels. Sounds good!

Saturday, 18 July 2009

# 527

Yesterday I was off work, but made myself busy. I cleaned up my apartment, dusted, washed the floor, cleaned the bathroom, and washed the windows. Then I went into town to buy a dress for my cousin's wedding on August 8th. I tried on four or five different ones, and had a hard choice between two. I finally decided on a matte golden, knee-length one with a broad fixed band around the waist. It's a little difficult to describe what it looks like... But I really like it. I also bought matching earrings and hair clasps. And I think I can find a necklace in my jewelry box, that goes with it. I normally don't fancy dressing up. But with a new dress, I think it should be fun.

When I was done shopping, I went to spend the rest of the day with Kristian. We played Munchkin, talked and watched MI-3. I was a little tired, but we really had a good time.

Today my dad and his wife is coming to visit and see my apartment for the first time. They want to buy us lunch at a restaurant, but I could not find anything but pizzerias and sleezy bars in my area, so we are all four going to meet up in the centre of town and find a nice restaurant or café. Then we are going to my place afterwards to have the coffee and tea. I bought some organic, fairtrade instant coffee and some cookies. (I don't drink coffee myself (but I do eat cookies ;) )).

The annoying thing is, that it is raining outside and is going to do so for the rest of the day, probably. I just checked the weather forecast, and it does not look much better for the rest of the week. This means wearing rain clothes to work - I hate that. Sigh. Well, I suppose I should be thankful, that I have a job.

Currently reading: The Amulet of Samarkand by Jonathan Stroud - an exciting read!

Currently listening: The Jungle Of The Midwest Sea by Flatfoot 56 - great punk rock :)

Thursday, 09 July 2009

# 526 - The (short) story has been sent

Alright, so I just sent the before mentioned story to an editor (who is my old boss and the only editor I know personally (I know I'm only too lucky to know one personally (Which is probably the reason he is starting a new job next month))). I suggested he publish it as a children's book. I don't know if they do this kind of book. This could be the first, anyway, heh, heh :)

Heidi is coming to visit for a few days. She has been on Bible Camp and is dropping in here on her way home. So I'm guessing this evening will be coziness and girls' movies. I haven't really watched a girls' movie for a long time. Kristian is not really into those. So it's gonna be a good time.

Other than working on that manuscript, it has mostly been work, work, work. I'm happy there is only one working day left of this week. And tomorrow I'll only do three visits instead of the normal four, so I'll finish early, probably around 12 o'clock.

Saturday my mom is visiting. I told her to bring the rest of my DVD collection. I hope she can find them, because I really miss them!

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Edit: I got an autoreply from the editor, saying he was out of his office until July 20th. Do I really have to wait this long?? Besides, I really hope he has time to look at the manuscript before he changes position. Teaches me to finish my manuscripts quicker!

Thursday, 02 July 2009

# 525 - I finished a (short) story

Yes, I know, Conscience. Someone ought to blog more often.

I finished a story the day before yesterday. It's only 7500 words long, but I am just so proud that I kept on writing till it was finished, instead of losing motivation on the halfway, as I usually do. It's a fairy tale, that I began writing when I was still in Bible School. At least most of it is written in a classic fairy tale style. It was really hard to maintain that style towards the end, but I am still happy with the result. I didn't show it to my mom and sis yet. It was meant to be a surprise. Maybe I'll whip up a handwritten copy for my six-year-old niece. I bet she'd like that. Kristian read all of it but the last three pages. He is kind of busy moving these days, but I hope he can take the time to read the rest soon. I am so eager to hear his response. I should also send a copy to my friend Heidi. She swallows up all my stories. I love that :)

I bought an external DVD-drive for my new netbook. So finally Kristian and I could watch a movie in my apartment. It works really well. And I can get my newest albums (Flatfoot 56 and Bryan Adams) onto the iPod. Good stuff.

As I mentioned, Kristian has finally moved to town. He's still a 40-minute bike ride away from me, but it's better than two hours by train. On Saturday we are going to his uncle and aunt's combined 120th birthday. It'll be my first meeting with a bigger get-together of his family, so I am a little nervous!

Work is okay. It's been really sunny and warm these days, so I got quite a tan on my arms from riding across town on my bike for hours every day.

That's it for tonight. See you later. .

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